Field Notes from a Neurodivergent Household
Week 3: When the Room Empties but the System Doesn’t Reset
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There are fewer bodies in the house this week.
The shift is immediate and not.
Their room is almost empty.
Not clean. Not reset. Just… emptied of most of what made it active.
They come back for another load every couple of days. A few more things disappear each time.
It looks like a room that has been moved out of but not finished.
There is a specific feeling to that.
Not presence. Not absence.
Something paused in between.
The counter behind the kitchen sink is clear.
The bottle sterilizer is gone.
The row of binkies.
The bottle warmer.
The swing is no longer in the dining room.
The freezer door opens without resistance.
No rows of breastmilk bags stacked and labeled. No careful system for thawing and feeding through the g-tube.
The pole is gone.
It used to move through the house on its own rhythm, following whoever was holding him.
Now the floor is still.
My son came back for the cat last night.
She started in this house years ago, when he was a teenager and brought her in without asking.
Then she moved up to college with him.
Then back here again when the baby was in the NICU.
Now she is gone again.
Another small migration completed.
